“You’re going to come across people in your life who will say all the right words at all the right times. But in the end, it’s always their actions you should judge them by. It’s actions, not words, that matter.”
“To be hopeful in bad times is not just foolishly romantic. It is based on the fact that human history is a history not only of cruelty, but also of compassion, sacrifice, courage, kindness. What we choose to emphasize in this complex history will determine our lives. If we see only the worst, it destroys our capacity to do something. If we remember those times and places - and there are so many - where people have behaved magnificently, this gives us the energy to act, and at least the possibility of sending this spinning top of a world in a different direction. And if we do act, in however small a way, we don’t have to wait for some grand utopian future. The future is an infinite succession of presents, and to live now as we think human beings should live, in defiance of all that is bad around us, is itself a marvelous victory.”
Waking From the 7 Year Coma
Stand-up. I just fucking love it. I’ve been good at things and there are things that I’ve had to apply some effort to be get to be good at, for one reason or another. Stand-up… is the first thing that has come along in my life that I want to be good at; for no other reason, than it fills a void.
There are other things that I used to love. Now they pale in comparison. This is the only thing that gets me excited. And… I suck at it right now. At least, performing it. I doubt myself constantly, as I’m surrounded by some incredibly talented, smart, individuals.
But these two quotes below that I read today reminded me of something. I’ve just recently broken free of the 7 year coma that was working in the restaurant industry. It swallowed me. Became all that I cared about, worked hard for, got upset about, and at the time that seemed reasonable, as that’s what everyone you’re working with is doing. But it isn’t. It’s ridiculous.
Now, I’m playing catch up on life. Discovering things I’ve been missing out on. And the truly great stand-ups draw from life. So, maybe part of my problem is that I haven’t really lived yet. I’m not comfortable in my own skin yet. And it doesn’t help that I’ve spent more time in my life taking care of others, than I have myself.
I feel like the youngest 25 year old alive. I remember feeling like the oldest 18 year old. In a way, I’m at an advantage. Because I can start now, just doing what I feel driven to do.
One of my favorite comics told me when I first got into stand-up that he sabotaged everything else he could have done in life, to make stand-up his only option. Honestly, I thought that was crazy initially, but now I kind of get it.
These two quotes made my entire day today:
"I think I realized it was an art form at the beginning, but it took me a really long time before I was able to view what I was performing myself as an art form." - Patton Oswalt
"I just always loved comedy and I really wanted to be good at it. And it was heartbreaking, cause I started and I wasn’t good at it. I was only 17 years old, so I had a lot to learn about life in general. But I just kept on trying. I was young enough and stupid enough and I had no other choice. I had nothing else I was good at." - Louis C.K.